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Name: Christa
Birthday: 1/7/1987
Gender: Female


Interests: MUSIC:Almost everything except rap, R&B, and country. READING: I love Meg Cabot, Jane Austen, Fareheit 451, Born Confused, Sarah Dessen, Dan Brown, Tamora Pierce TELEVISION: hmm...I love watching VH1...best week ever, I love the (fill in the blank), you name it, I also love TLC shows...I'm sad, Judging Amy, ER, Crossing Jordan POLITICS: I'm liberal...I have Bush and his policies MOVIES: The Count of Monte Cristo, Wit, Bend it Like Beckham, many, many more TALKING: I do it all the time so get used to it SLEEPING: I like doing this but I get less sleep than most people, OTHER: Playing piano and bari, writing, doing nothing, deep conversations
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Thursday, April 06, 2006

This pretty much sums up what I have been feeling lately...

I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don’t know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired. I am twenty (well I'm nineteen) and I am already exhausted.
Elizabeth Wurtzel


Tuesday, March 21, 2006

it seems as if I will be transfering back to Minnesota...the pain is killing me, I just want to stay here, I hate this.


Friday, March 17, 2006

Protected post before this one

 

Okay, so today I went shopping.  I got the best deals...awwww!  Okay, so I went to Sears and I sort of went crazy grabbing stuff off the 60% rack.  Then I preceeded to the changing rooms.  I was liking a lot of the stuff that I tried on so I was getting nervous about having to choose but then I looked at the prices and I was like...wow.  I ened up getting two pairs of brown capri/gaucho pants that are pretty cute (originally $38) and a pair of black gaucho pants (orig. $44) and a pair of pinstripe gray capri/gaucho pants (orig $38) and a brown and pink scarf (orig. $16) and a brown jacket with red pinstripes that is justr awesome (orig $60).  So I looked at the price of the pants and I saw 5.99 for each of them and I was very excited.  Then when I got to the counter I found out that the pants were actually only 3 dollars each and I got like a shopping high.  I thought you would be really proud Deanne.  So I got my pants for 3 dollars each and my scarf for only 2 dollars and my coat ended up being 40 which isn't so bad for a jacket.  I ended up paying about 55 dollars and saving $179, now if that isn't smart shopping I don't know what is.  The stuff I bought was probably made in a sweatshop though so that pretty much sucks.

The jacket is more of a piece of clothing and not a spring jacket so I got a army green cropped jacket and saved 10 dollars there as well.  So obviously Chris could care less about this post, I am more aiming towards Deanne but yeah...haha.  I just feel so giddy.  Like my father says, you might have saved 5 dollars but you still spent 50, so don't worry I am keeping that in mind, but I am sure these pieces of clothing will be very useful.


Tuesday, March 07, 2006

gosh I haven't written in forever.  I got Rent and Life is Beautiful Today...yay! Deanne visited...yay! but then left...sadness...haha.  So yeah...more later perhaps.


Friday, January 20, 2006

Ok - So just wondering - if I post something protected do you guys (Chris and Ericka) read it? Just wondering.  Anyways so my last post was protected...just in case you feel the need to read something extremely boring...haha.  Anyways I really need to update more...at least once a week.  So I hope you are having a blast in Europe Ericka and Chris I hope something great happens to you that totally changes your outlook on life because I know how much it sucks to feel down about it all...yeah...

Top 100 Songs of 2005

    ~Okay, so finally practically 1/12 through the year already I have finally posted my top songs.  These songs did not necessarily come out in 2005 but they are songs that I have discovered, fell in love with, and think everyone should check out.  Its hard to remember when I actually first discovered a song, but I have tried to keep them all within the year.  The first 25 or so are pretty much in a ranking order but then I got bored and the rest are just random.  So I hope you all enjoy these songs as much as I do.  I’m sure a majority of these you already have or have listened to..but who knows!  Also hope you enjoy my little comments…haha~

1) Existentialism On Prom Night – Straylight Run

            -This song is dedicated to Chris S…who helped me discover the wonder of Straylight Run

2) Slipped Away – Avril Lavigne

            -This song is for Deanne, my non-sexual soul mate- This is my ultimate depression song I think

3) No Bravery – James Blunt

            -so heartfelt and I love the somewhat political aspect

4) Take Me Or Leave Me – RENT

            -Rent is amazing…thanks Lisa!

5) Empty Apartment – Yellowcard

6) The General – Dispatch

            -this one is for Emma just because she loves it so much

7) Helena – My Chemical Romance

8) Hide and Seek – Imogen Heap

            -this song is a bit odd, but I love it!

9) Sugar, We’re Goin Down – Fall Out Boy

10) Swing Life Away – Rise Against

11) Comfortable – John Mayer

            -This is for Lisa who showed me that John Mayer does have an occasional good song

12) Another Word For Desperate – Straylight Run

13) Getting Into You – Reliant K

            -this song is for Lance’s new search for awesome music…haha…and the band that I think might have brought it about

14) Amie - Damien Rice

15) Chariot – Gavin DeGraw

            -This song would be for Stuart…I think Gavin was the first singer he recommended…it seems so long ago!

16) We’ve Had Enough – Alkaline Trio

17) Good People – Jack Johnson

18) Seasons Of Love – RENT

19) These Words – Natasha Bedingfield

20) Title And Registration – Death Cab For Cutie

21) Cemetery Drive – My Chemical Romance

22) Where Is Your Boy Tonight? – Fall Out Boy

23) I Wasn’t Prepared – Eisley

24) Cute Without The ‘E’ – Taking Back Sunday

25) Tomorrow Brings Another Day – D’Augusto

            -stuart….I’m still waiting for that email….haha

26) A Favor House Atlantic – Coheed and Cambria

27) It Ends Tonight – The All American Rejects

            -this is for the tragedy that is us missing AAR

28) The Artist In The Ambulence – Thrice

29) The Annoying Hardcore Dude That Goes Too Far – Bradley Hathaway

            -gotta love Bradley

30) Conspiracy – Paramore

31) Wake Me Up When September Ends – Green Day

32) Give It All – Rise Against

33) Brighter Than Sunshine – Aqualung

34) Plane – Jason Mraz

35) Can’t Take It – The All-American Rejects

36) Just Friends – Gavin DeGraw

37) The Sound Of Settling – Death Cab For Cutie

38) Breakdown – Jack Johnson

39) My Eyes Burn – Matchbook Romance

40) Blower’s Daughter – Damien Rice

41) How Does It Feel? – Avril Lavigne

42) Goodnight Goodnight – Hot Hot Heat

43) Ugly – The Exies

44) Such Great Heights – The Postal Service

45) On My Own – Les Miserables

46) Show Me Everything You’ve Got – The Rocket Summer

            -this is for Dara…whose itunes I stole all the bands songs from….

47) Don’t Lie – The Black Eyed Peas

48) Brain Stew – Green Day

49) La Vie Boheme – RENT

50) The World – The Starting Line

51) Around The Clock – The Rocket Summer

52) Believe – Yellowcard

53) Hear You Me – Jimmy Eat World

54) Dirty Little Secret – The All-America Rejects

55) Life Is Wonderful – Jason Mraz
56) There’s No ‘I’ in Team – Taking Back Sunday

57) View From Heaven – Yellowcard

58) Goodbye Love – RENT

59) Adam’s Song – Blink 182

60) Good-bye My Lover – James Blunt

61) Wait For Me – Stonecast

            -this song is in memory of Stonecast…why did you have to break up?

62) Whos To Say - Vanessa Carlton

63) Winding Road – Bonnie Somerville

64) Collide – Howie Day

65) You & Me – Lifehouse

66) I’m Not Okay (I Promise) – My Chemical Romance

67) Be My Escape – Reliant K

68) Breathe – Anna Nalick

69) From Underneath – Hawk Nelson

            -this one is for Seng for recommending this awesome band

70) Untitled – Simple Plan

71) Older Chests – Damien Rice

72) Too Lost In You – Sugababes

            -I have to have a least one track from Love Actually

73) Stay or Leave – Dave Matthews Band

74) May Angles Lead You There – Jimmy Eat World

75) 11:11 PM – The All-American Rejects

76) Mr. Curiosity – Jason Mraz

77) Whoa – Paramore

78) Making Love To The Camera – The Starting Line

79) A Decade Under The Influence – Taking Back Sunday

80) Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again – Phantom of the Opera

81) All These Things I’ve Done – The Killers

82) Always Look On The Bright Side Of Life – Monty Python

            -this is dedicated to Dee, Erica, and Emma and FCCLA Nationals

83) Boulevard of Broken Dreams – Green Day

84) Catch My Disease – Ben Lee

85) Beverly Hills – Weezer

86) Danger! High Voltage – Electric Six

            -this is for Katie Murdock, the pizza dance and our disco fiestas

87) Le Gorille – George Brassons

            -this one is dedicated to my Europe trip…our official theme song

88) The Hand That Feeds – Nine Inch Nails

89) Haunted – Evanescence

90) I’ll Be Seeing You – Billie Holiday

91) Can You Hear The People Sing? – Les Miserables

92) Pon De Replay – Rihanna

93) Sing – Dope

94) A Lack Of Color – Death Cab For Cutie

95) Nothing Better – The Postal Service

96) If We Never Go Inside – Alkaline Trio

97) Never Know – Jack Johnson

98) Sitting, Waiting, Wishing – Jack Johnson

99) Don’t Phunk With My Heart – The Black Eyed Peas

100) Brat Pack – The Rocket Summer



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